On Monday I'll be on a new workplace, it feels sad to be counting the last days I spend with my favourite co-workers. I'm gonna miss them, I even cried yesterday. It's so stupid. "nobody said it was gonna be easy, no one ever said it would be so hard..." Indeed I didn't expect it... I'm going crazy these days, I'm nervous, I'm pessimistic, and at times I'm full of love to everyone as it's the only certain thing to cling to... On Monday it will all be gone and I hope the new beginning is for good. I'm gonna miss some of the people. Others I'll be happy to see never again. And as for creativity, I'm still burning, I wish I had enough time for all the stuff I wanna do and in the near future it seems I'll have less time for me than I do now. I'm sad, I'm happy. It should feel as usual but usually there's no uncertainty around me and right now it feels like I'm walking on some kind of tiny thread with only endless darkness underneath and I'm waiting for it to break and find out what the drop feels like. Free fall maybe

. At least I've decided for myself who are the people I care for and who I can go without. And I must admit there's more positive emotion in the process than I expected. May Love save me...
Love, Sweetness and Bitterness,
Cenestelle
P. S. I keep wondering why I do everything I do these days, like decorating all rooms and helping everyone who asks for help, even though I won't be here in a few days to come. And why I keep talking politely to people I dislike, and why on Earth haven't I told them I'm leaving. Half the company doesn't even have a clue... They'll be surprised, and many will be glad I guess. But not all... Cinicism starts to take over, it's getting stupid... Whatever...
Good luck to your new work.